YouTube star Tana Mongeau said she’s going to take a break from social media for her own mental health. Mongeau, who has nearly 5 million Instagram followers and more than 5 million YouTube subscribers, posted the notice on Instagram on Tuesday night, saying she needs to step back “for my brain.”
“Maybe i’ll be on IG live tmrw with my tits out and fine. who knows,” Mongeau wrote. “ALL LOVE to everyone in my life & zero shade to ANYONE. i just wanna take a little time to tell the people i love that i love them. and not care about comments or tweets or people’s opinion of me for the first time in six years.. i wanna have a conversation with someone without thinking about the internet for five minutes.”
Mongeau has been heavily in the spotlight since July after she and Jake Paul claimed they got married. In the past few years, she’s also been embroiled in YouTube drama for her romantic relationship with Bella Thorne, for sexualizing then 15-year-old JoJo Siwa in a Halloween costume, and for her TanaCon disaster when her fan festival was overrun by supporters and had to be shut down.
She’s faced more scrutiny for her fake marriage to Paul and for a supposed wedding stream from Las Vegas that was so poor that refunds had to be issued. In her Instagram post, she made it clear that authenticity was important to her well-being.
“I don’t wanna fill my heart with doubt posting things that i know aren’t authentic to the way i feel. knowing the people who are real fans of me would see right through that facade and hating myself for becoming what i never wanted to. authenticity has and always will be the most important thing to me and i think i hate myself most in moments that i stray from that,” she wrote, “I don’t want to act like i’m happy when i’m not to maintain an image that isn’t true.. i’d rather clear my head for a sec so that you guys always know when i’m smiling that it isn’t fake.”
It’s unclear if her decision has anything to do with Paul’s latest social media stunt.
Jumping into the YouTube fracas that featured Alissa Violet blasting ex-boyfriend FaZe Banks for apparently cheating on her and Banks responding by saying that Violet did “horrible things” to him, Paul posted on Instagram an old photo of him and Violet about to kiss and referenced a potential new song about their former relationship.
For Mongeau, she wrote that she wants to be an advocate for mental health and for being honest about her emotions.
“It’s so easy to get caught up in the highlight reel,” she wrote. “Victimizing myself in any situation is not the route i want to take, i guess i just wanna be authentically happy and myself or nothing else.. idk. just know that this is just something i wanna do for me & not at the fault of anyone else. … so ima do me for a few days, i encourage you to do the same if you’re ever feeling down or succumbing to the pressure of the highlight reel. love u hookers i’m gonna go look at the sky or some shit what do people do other than instagram???”